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|Friday, January 29th, 2016|
|Monday, August 3rd, 2015|
|In the garden lies death... 😋
Someone said the little scarecrow in my garden was "cute," so I had to give them the real story:
Ahh, but therein lies the genius of the thing: the crows think they have nothing to fear but...look again at those eyes behind the harmless smile. If a crow more than glances at the scarecrow, his soul is shattered by visions of unthinkable darkness and the bird falls over, dead from a terror so deep as to be unmeasurable. Among the local wildlife, this "cute little guy" is known as " He Who Smiles Among The Rows," and creatures both great and small know not to frolic in this McGreagor's garden. The beautiful butterflies are the only things that dare to flutter about the garden, but these butterflies carry the souls of those who dared the garden path. They look lovely, but if they could make a sound, the garden would be filled with endless butterfly screams...
|Saturday, July 25th, 2015|
Autocorrect is like a nagging backseat driver." You should use this word here." Me: " Thanks, but I know the word I want to use." Autocorrect: " This one is much better." Me: " ...but that doesn't even make sense in the context of the sentence!!!" Autocorrect, " This word, this word, THIS WORD, THISWORD, USE IT!!!!" Me, hitting " enter" and seeing nonsensical subsituted word: "Dammit..." Current Mood: amused
|Wednesday, August 13th, 2014|
|Sunday, October 6th, 2013|
|Creepy childhood memory
Another site I was on asked folks to share a story of a creepy encounter. This is my story of what happened to me whenI was in 6th grade:
In 6th grade, I lived in a small Tennessee town. Our neighbor next door had a teenage son who was tall and skinny and who had long black hair that was always hiding parts of his face.
This kid had a camera, I guess it was one of those 8mm video cameras. He used to ask me and my friend to "dance, and spin around really fast" while he made movies of us.
Looking back as a grown-up, I realize he was filming our underwear, legs, etc as we spun around in our dresses. :0(
One day, he talked us into his basement, saying he was filming a "planet of the apes sequel," (yes, I know. Kids are gullible!) and wanted us to be in his film. I remember feeling flattered he wanted me in his "movie," but I had butterflies and was feeling kind of scared and confused, too. The guy was sweaty and breathing weird and it made me feel weird, too.
Suddenly, we heard the basement door open, and feet on the stairs. Teenage guy got a really scared look on his face,and shoved us under an old table that had a dusty tablecloth hanging down,and he got in our face and whispered , " don't make a sound!"
It was the guys dad,and all we heard from under the table was a mumbled conversation between the two. my friend and I were shaking and trying not to breathe or make a sound. I remember i really had to pee, and i had an urge to giggle. I have no idea why we didn't question why he didn't want anyone to know we were in the basement, or why we didn't come out from under the table, but we didn't.
When the dad went back up the stairs, creepy guy said for us to leave but he would come get us later. We ran out the basement door and never went back, and avoided him after that. Neither of us told anybody about the "movies" or the basement.
We moved soon after, but I still wonder what ever happened to that guy, and if those old films of us twirling around with our panties showing are still floating around...
|Saturday, March 2nd, 2013|
|Why I missed my 25-year reunion
Summer of 2009, I was thinking about going to our high school reunion/picnic at the park.I hadn't gone to any reunions,but thought since one of the events was a casual meet at a park, I might drop by.the day of the reunion I woke up with cramps and bleeding,culminating into a trip to the ER,as I was having a miscarriage. I had been 7.5 weeks pregnant, and hadn't told but a very few folks. I was 43 and the pregnancy was not planned,but losing the pregnancy was a sad, lonely and painful experience.
Mark acted like it was no big deal. Like a skinned knee,or like I hit my funny-bone. He never talks about it,ever. February was my projected due date, and every February, I get a little melancholy thinking about who that little Miss or Mister would have been.
I did have another unexpected pregnancy, and gave birth to my awesome Josiah in June of 2010,my 5th pregnancy,4th and final baby. :0) he is my rainbow baby,my happiness after the rain.
So, that's why I didn't show up for my high school reunion. I also was just a faceless person in a graduating class of over 500 people, and nobody really knew me. I wasn't in with any cliques, groups or clubs. Never stood out in any way, so I'm sure I haven't been missed over the years. Anyway, that's that.
|Wednesday, November 21st, 2012|
|Strangest thing that's been in your vagina?
The debate team board is an interesting place! How could one stumble across this question and not answer it? My confession:
Probably the craziest thing was that time I helped a group of seven American tourists cross over into Canada. They didn't realize you need a passport,and they so wanted to see the beautiful Canadian Rockies!
So,I lifted my dress (discreetly,) bid them "hop aboard!" and carried them safely across the border. Once across,they thanked me for a job well done,and went off on their merry way.
The moral of this story? "Do your kegels every day; you never know when that power will come in handy!" Current Mood: amused
|Possible Trigger-My answer to "should you tell you were sexually abused as a child?"
Here it is,the deep dark part of me. There is more,but not ready to share,even on an anonymous journal. After this,we will return to my normal goofy self. I'm just in a mood to purge a bit,finally after 30+ years. This post is For your eyes only,LJ. No one else comes here,unless it's by accident! :0D
Chrissee,I'm sorry you went through that experience. I wish you had an easy decision to tell or not. Abusers are really good at making us feel afraid or too ashamed to tell. That's why so many of them get away with doing hurtful things,sometimes to many people,for many years. They use guilt,love,intimidation and fear to brainwash us into keeping silent.
In second-third grade,we had a family with a teenage boy who moved in next door. He had a super 8 camera,and said he liked making movies. He befriended myself and my best friend at the time. Traumatic story made short,Somewhere out there are movies and photos of the two of us. He would have us twirl around in our dresses with no underwear,and sometimes with no shirts,etc. neither one of us has ever told anyone. We live in separate states now,but sometimes we talk about, "remember that creepy kid that lived in the house between ours? Wonder if that stuff is floating around somewhere?"
I'll never tell my parents. They are elderly,and I feel ok to let them leave this earth with my big-ass secret intact. Sometimes,if I think about it,I get angry,and the kid in me thinks, "how did you not know?? How could you not know? And why did you think it was ok for me to spend time at the home of a high school boy when I was 9???" But,I mostly stuff it in a little box in my brain,and shut the lid,padlock it away.
Just remember,a secret once told,can never be unknown. It's up to you if this is a good or bad thing for you. I wish you the best outcome for your healing,whatever you decide to do!
So,there it is. The part of me that I keep locked up good and tight. Current Mood: dirty
|Answers to random questions from another board
I'm a member of a debate team board. Mostly I lurk and read,which is pretty entertaining. I do enjoy answering questions or joining in sometimes. I used to LJ often,and I miss having a place to write what I'm thinking,so thought this topic was as good as any to make my LJ comeback.
The debate was about young marriage. Do we think its good,bad,or do we feel age doesn't matter. My response:
I married my high school sweetheart when we were 20,but we were both kids emotionally. Both with homes and backgrounds that weren't the best models for how to relate and how to behave in a marriage. Our time together was less of a calm and loving place to rest and recharge after a long day, and more of back to back episodes of Jerry springer. We thought drama and embarrassing displays of jealously=love.
Needless to say,it didn't end well. We are friends today,and we laugh about how naive and silly we both were. Our best embarrassing story we look back on and laugh....we were at the mall,in the game arcade,probably playing Galaga or centipede or something. Dewayne thought some guy was "looking at his woman,"called the poor guy out,and started fighting in the parking lot. I was out there,baby on my hip,yelling, "dewayne!!! Y'all need to quit! I'm taking our baby and walking home!!" Geez...
That was pretty much our experience of young marriage,lol...one giant cringe-worthy event after the other. *sigh*
How people treat you is their karma, how you react is yours.-Wayne Dyer ** Tracy, mom of Levi (24) Amanda (20) Katie (9),& Josiah dob 6/4/10
There it is,my first post in a while. I wanted a place where I could sort of gather some of the stuff I write about in different places,and anchor it all together here on LJ. Nobody comes here or reads this stuff much,but I write my brain-thoughts down for my own amusement...and to try and stave off the dark things for one more day. :0) Current Mood: contemplative
|Wednesday, July 20th, 2011|
|Doo dee doo
LOL... , I I surely do not look like my userpicpic at the moment,but 10 pounds away from my pre-really- late- in- life- baby (number 4!) weight.
One more day of 166 mile round trip commute for work,and I'll be back home for a while. I've been conducting training sessions waaay out of town all week,so ready to be back in my own office.
One of these days,I'm gonna go back and re-read all my old stuff here on LJ,maybe print it for posterity and store it with all of my old school paper diaries. :0)
Anyway,just got in,road weary,but saw another LJ old-timer had checked in,so thought I'd do the same. :0) Current Mood: sleepy
|Thursday, July 9th, 2009|
|Saturday, April 25th, 2009|
|Aquariums are the crack of the pet world.
You think, "Ok...just one, just a small one." Next thing you know, you have a 55 gallon aquarium up in the playroom, a small 2.5 "for the babies"sitting by the bed, and the 70 gallon down in the basement is calling my name. "Traaacy, come on...set me up again. You know you want to...remember how good it used to be?"
I got a couple of angelfish from a lady at work, :"for free." Thank you, Rhonda, for feeding my habit.Thank for for waking the beast. She started out by giving me some guppies. "Just try it," she said. "It will be fun." I told her I had aquariums before, but once we built our new house and moved 3 years ago, I vowed to never set another one up again. How easy it was to fall.....:0D
I'm really loving this new workout, Chalean Extreme. Today is abs and yogs, but first I'm gonna clean out the aquarium....
:0) Current Mood: amused
|Friday, April 17th, 2009|
|My Last First Time
I took off work today, and spent the day at the zoo with my daughter. She is in kindergarten, and it was her very first field trip. I had so much fun, but it was a little sad, because I know how quickly she will grow up, and before I know it, she'll be out the door. I said this was my last first time, because my other "little ones" are 21 and 17, and this is my last baby (unless we get another late in life surprise!), so this was the last time I will get to go on a first field trip with my child. :0)
The kids were so excited this morning, it was funny. The teacher was attempting to keep them in their seats and on task until the bus came. One little guy hopped up and said, "Mrs. Webb! Mrs. Webb!! We are going to the ZOOOO!!!"
Then another one goes, "Mrs Webb, Mrs Webb...the zoo is in Nashville! I know that! I know the zoo is in Nashville!!"
They were cracking me up....
Linky Loo to the Nashville Zoo:
nashvillezoo.org/visitor_map.asp Current Mood: nostalgic
|Sunday, February 22nd, 2009|
|Been a long time, been a long time, been a long lonely....etc. etc
Gosh, I used to post here all the time! I usually check in with body for life tracker, and a quick post on facebook. I kept a diary faithfully for years, then started LJ, but can't believe how I have neglected my ramblings! Bad me, boo!!!
I need to try and do better. I enjoy writing, but it is so easy to neglect for other random stuff....
Anyway, another one of those stupid, stupid survey thingies:
named after anyone?
middle name, named after Annette Funnichello (sp). Daddy liked her big bazoombas.
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Cryin' Is for Pussies.
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING
Gosh, No! lol....
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
shaved mesquite turkey from the deli
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
I don't keep baby goats, but I do have three lovely children!
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
If I saw me coming, I would turn and run for my life in the opposite direction!
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
8. Do you still have your tonsils?
Yes, and also the tonsils of several other people. I won them on Ebay. I will bid on anything on that site if the price is right!
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
Would I have to depend on Hippie Stoners to calculate the stretch in the particular cord x the length of the fall, factoring in things like my weight, the trajectory of my jump outwards, plus throw in things like wind speed and how many times that cord has been stretched already? Then...no. Looks like fun though!
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
Lucky Charms (they're magically delicious)
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
All my shoes are velcro. My secret shame is that I never learned to tie. Thanks for bringing back those feelings, stupid survey. *sob*
12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?
I am "Strong Like Bull!"
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM
Ice cream hurts my insides and gives me raging diarrhea, but I still love the occasional caramel sundae from dairy queen. I just have to be close to home before I indulge. :0D
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
Whether or not I "have them fooled."
15. RED OR PINK?
Rink, sometimes I like Ped.
16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
My inability to tie shoes. Thanks again, dammit!
17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
John Denver. I miss his mellow music.
18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU?
If they want me to know all their secrets, then "sure!"
19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
What the hell are all these questions about shoes?? Just stop, already!
20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
I drank a Coca-Cola in a glass bottle. Mmmm, fizzy!
21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
The inner working of my feeble brain, also, the tap tap of my fingers on the keyboard.
22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
I would be the broken and crushed one, dropped in the driveway, slowly melting in the summer sun.
23. FAVORITE SMELLS?
Melting crayons, clothes fresh from the dryer.
24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Why are you asking all these personal questions? I am starting to get pissed.....
25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
Curling. I love the guy with the little ice broom thingy.
27. HAIR COLOR?
28. EYE COLOR?
Brown, like poo.
29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
Yes. I can't tie shoes, and I am visually impaired. Happy now?
30. FAVORITE FOOD?
according to my mood.
31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
I like scary movies. For a Happy Ending, you need to visit the massage place over on Interstate Drive, right off I-40.
32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
"Without The King" a doc about the monarchy in Swaziland. The royal family lives the lush life, while their people have a life expectancy of 31 years. Netflix rocks!
33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
big floppy white tshirt. standard weekend wear.
34. FAVORITE SEASON ?
Summer, bring on the heat!
35. HUGS OR KISSES?
I like a plain Hershey kiss. The hugs confuse me with their two flavors in one!
36. FAVORITE DESSERT?
The Gobi, or maybe the Sahara. ;0D
37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
38. What book are you currently reading?
I am reading through a stack of Ladies' Home Journals from 1922, 1936, 1942, 1945-46 that I won on Ebay. So so so so cool!!! Love the clothes, the recipes, the advertisements! The back cover of the 1942 December LHJ has Santa in an army cap, with his sack overflowing with cartons of Chesterfields for Christmas gifts!!
40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
Laser mouse at work, no mouse pad needed. I'm on my laptop at home using the thingy on the laptop. no mouse, no mousepad.
41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
Nothing, read these LHJ's all night!
42. FAVORITE SOUND
The Sound.....of Silence!
43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
Home is where the heart is.
45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
Nope. I can tell you what talent I do NOT possess, the talent of TYING SHOES!! *soooob*
46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
Not sure. I just remember being in the dark, feeling a lot of pressure, then I was out in the light, something slapped me on the ass, and here I am!
47. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK?
my own. I highly amuse myself. Current Mood: chipper
|Tuesday, September 2nd, 2008|
|People ask me to complete these things..
....then they back away from me slowly, or sometimes run away screaming! :o)
Name: Tracy Annette
Birthdate: January 26, the age of aquarius..or is it aquariums?
Current Location: after 1 million moves, I am back where I started, in my hometown.
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: blonde
Height: 5' 4
Weight: In between 120-123, but fighting for 115!
Piercings: left ear twice, right ear once (from when I dated T.B. and we shared earrings). Belly button and nips, but the nips and navel have closed for business. May re-pierce them someday....
Boyfriend/Girlfriend: want me to list them? I had a few back in "the day."
Overused Phraze: "Back in the day" :0D
Food: yes.I do eat food. Chinese buffets are awesome! I get on "food jags" where I am perfectly happy to eat the same thing for weeks at a time. Like, I will eat a turkey and swiss on WW bread from Great Harvest bread store every day for lunch for a month, or a cup of shredded lettuce, 2 slices of shaved turkey, pulled into pieces, 1/4 cup of fat free croutons, 2 tablespoons of cheese crumbles and a tablespoon of catalina dressing. every day, for weeks. :0D I have issues with food...
Candy: sweet tarts, pixie stix, sour patch kids, butterfinger, baby ruth, and for a treat, I LOVE See's chocolates! I mail order them from California on occasion. I also LOVE fizzy fruit tingles and violet crumbles (you can order them from online aussie food catalogs). I also like those real liquor filled Fizer chocolates. I found an online source for those chocolates! fizer liquor fills....yummmm
Rock Band: I prefer Guitar Hero. :0)
Actor/Actress: Actress: Li Gong (AKS Gong Li):http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0000084/
I love everything I've ever seen her in! Raise the Red Lantern, Memoirs of a Geisha, Curse of the Golden flower, etc etc...
Beautiful and wonderful actress!!! Actor....Well, Johnny Depp and Brad Pitt are beautiful. I think Robert Duvall is an amazing actor. Try watching him in "Tender Mercies" if you want to watch an amazing actor at work. He's just so so so so good in that film, and just about anything I've seen him in. Try the first Lonesome Dove miniseries also to see him inhabit a role! http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0000380/
Number: A mom and a daddy/had a little baby/that makes threeee/in the family! (from Sesame Street)Good song, great number. However, I like all numbers equally.
Animal: Well, the family loves our three dogs and our amazing slothful, clawless indoor cat. To me, that is just more poo to pick up, and more mouths to feed, more things needing my attention. I should have been a hermit in a cave, or a wandering gypsy. Alone, alone, alone.....*sigh*
Drink: ice cold water, but do love one of those tiny 100 calorie cans of coke or sprite on my free day (Sunday).
Alcohol Drink: don't drink anymore, but back in the day, it was bacardi 151 with dr pepper, mountain dew or coke. 151 got me the drunkest, the quickest, which was my goal! Woo-Hoo!!!
Bagel: Asiago Cheese bagel, or blueberry bagel (anti-oxidant!). gotta have some good carbs after a workout. 1/2 a bagel only, and it has to be plain. If I absolutely am worthless and weak, I will put 1 TEASPOON of strawberry cream cheese on the bagel.
Letter: I like the lowercase Russian letter "t" because it looks like an "m" except with a line over the top.
Body Part on Opposite sex: the lips, tongue and fingers if they know what they are doing. Also, the penis. It's important that it works. If it doesn't, they had better be REALLY good with the other parts I named.
This or That
Pepsi or Coke: Coke. Have to stay away, or I will binge on it. One coke a week.
McDonalds or BurgerKing: McD's has a grilled snack wrap that isn't bad if you don't get the mayo one. get the one with honey mustard instead. and just one. not two. eat slow, tiny bites. :0)
Strawberry or Watermelon: watermelon tastes like sour water to me. We grow tons of the nasty things. We also grow strawberries, which I love, but they make me break out in spots if I eat many of them. LOVE them fresh from the garden,though!
Hot tea or Ice tea: neither.I cannot abide tea. I hate tea and watermelon. Am I really from the south?
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate gravy over biscuits or pancakes. Another free day treat!
Hot Chocolate or Coffee: hot cocoa with marshmallows. coffee with 2 sugars is also good sometimes.
Kiss or Hug: kugs and hisses.
Dog or Cat: I will sell you the entire kit and kaboodle....name your price. :0)
Rap or Punk: Eminem was good in that movie 8 mile. It was sort of rap? and blondie is good in that old rapper's delight song. I like the Ramones, which was sort of the beginning of punk. The late 70's The Clash-London Calling, Should I stay or Should I Go,Rock the Casbah. The Sex Pistols-Anarchy in the UK. wanna see the first time they were on tv? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C8szRgIcYlY&feature=related
Summer or Winter: Summertime, and the livin' is easy! I am a lizard, and I need the sun!!!
Scary Movies or Funny Movies: both/either, according to my mood. Usually needs to be obscure with subtitles to hold my interest. I also like dumb, stupid guy movies, like that movie about the cute pregnant blonde chick with the pot smoking boyfriend? and the stupid sports spoof movies, like dodgeball. "If you can dodge a wrench, you can dodge a ball!"
Love or Money: That's a tough one. If I had enough money, I wouldn't need love. Again with my "alone traveling the world" hermit theme. I like love, but always, always f*ck it up. Every.Single. Time.They like me at first, but always, always, always it ends. Then when they get tired of my sh*t and go away, I try to lure them back, then I push them away again. it's a pretty damn sad game I play! I wish no man would love me, because then I wouldn't have to worry about living up to expectations, or screwing up someone for life....lol. I am a really good mom, though. I am trying to put my own children in a happier place than I have ever been! I want them to be self-confident creatures, out in the world able to have normal human emotions and relationships!My children are loving, happy, healthy, giving people, who seem to genuinely care for other people, and they are funny and sweet, and smart, too!
Bedtime: around 1030, then up at 5 am to work out 6x a week!
Most Missed Memory: my childhood. I don't remember hardly anything before the age of 14 or so. I kind of remember things when other people do the, "hey remember when...." stuff. That is one reason I've always kept a diary, because my memories are like wispy clouds...I think it is a protective mechanism, lol....
Best physical feature: none. I am a constant work in progress. Some days I sort of like my legs at a certain angle! and people say my bum is nice.
First Thought Waking Up: Dammit! Then I think, "man I wish I had that lasik done, so I could see the freaking alarm clock." then I usually think, "where are my glasses? has the cat knocked them down again??" Then I remember they are over by my clock, so have to reach my arm over further. THEN I get up, go pee, and go straight downstairs to work out. if there is no more water in the basement fridge, I have to climb back upstairs and get one, then back down again.
Goal for this year: For Jeanna to sell her house! my personal goal: more muscle, less f-a-t!
Best Friends: I hear good friends are hard to come by.
Heritage: the bottom of the gene pool!
Longest relationship: long does not = great. sometimes long only equals fear and co-dependency! I keep waiting for my Mister to toss me to the curb...
Ever Drank: YES
Ever Smoked: YES
Pot: Should be legal, all I'm sayin. I would much rather deal with one of my clients on pot than alcohol...
Ever been Drunk: YES
Ever been beaten up: yes I have, on more than one occasion.it sucks, by the way.I got a big beat-down by a gang of girls in a school in Dalton Georgia in the 8th grade.
Ever beaten someone up: mentally, I have.
Ever Shoplifted: I talked other people into doing it, while innocent me reaped the benefit without the fear of being caught.
Ever Skinny Dipped: yes, rode home across town nude, too, on a dare. It was pretty funny! I put a shirt over my top half when we stopped at red lights. It was VERY late at night!
Ever Kissed Opposite sex: YES
Ever Kissed Same sex: yes
Been Dumped Lately: not today!
IN A GUY/GIRL?? Am I currently in a guy or girl? No, at the moment I am typing on the laptop.
Favorite Eye Color: two eyes are pretty good. Dark, brooding eyes are nice, beautiful blue ones, green ones, ones that look Intelligent are a plus.
Favorite Hair Color: brown or black
Short or Long: as long as it's not "business in the front, party in the back" I'm good.
Height: too tall intimidates me, I don't like it. anywhere from 5'5" to 5'10" is good for me.
Style: I have none. I need to be on that "what not to wear" show.
Looks or Personality: Nice looks are good, but I need a personality strong enough to not be psychologically shredded by tropical storm Tracy.Not many last too long around me.
Hot or Cute : Hot is hot, but it can fade pretty quickly. something to be said for a michael j fox kind of cute, and also for a tommy lee nasty sort of hotness.
Drugs and Alcohol: Umm, of course, just say no, right?
Muscular or Really Skinny:muscles...mmmmmmmm, muscles!I want a man bigger than I am! Too skinny just makes me want to FEED them, for goodness' sake! Hardbodies rock my body, although there is something to be said for Jeanna's "skinny guys have big things" theory.
Number of Regrets in the Past: "regrets, I have a few/but then again, too few to mention..."
What country do you want to Visit: American Samoa, Belgium,Cambodia, China,French Polynesia, Egypt, Ireland, Italy, NORTH Korea (want to know what is really going on over there),Moldova,Marshall Islands, Morocco, Singapore, Russia...
How do you want to Die: I don't. I want to be young and healthy and vital for at least 300-400 years!
Been to the Mall Lately: Our mall is dead. Only jc penney and GNC remain. Getting ready to bulldoze it, rumor has it. We have a HUGE shopping center, though, taking the place of indoor type malls. Less chance to be randomly shot by a crazy when you are not trapped inside a giant gerbil maze/indoor mall.
Favorite store to shop at: Kohl's, Goodwill Superstore, Books a Million, but my favorite bookstore is the Book Cellar, a used bookstore about 30 miles away in Crossville. I love little independent stores, and love to explore downtown, off the beaten path places.
do you like thunderstorms? thunder, ok. Lightning and wind, not so much.
Get along with your Parents: no comment in this semi-public forum...
Health Freak: no?
Do you think your Attractive: your attractive what? do you mean you're attractive? I am a work in progress...
Believe in Yourself: isn't it obvious? LOL.....
Want to go to College: want to go back!
Do you Smoke: Not anymore. gave up cigs years ago. still love the smell of them, and the ritual of them, how you light a cigarette, how you hold it, wave it around, inhale, how the smoke wreaths back out of your mouth and nose.....
Do you Drink: not alcohol anymore.I loved it "back in the day," but only to get drunk.
Shower Daily: Eww, yes!
Been in Love: obsessive love/lust, several times.
Do you Sing: yes, but you don't want to hear it. I know the lyrics to a zillion random songs, but can't carry a tune, so my gift is worthless! unless we are playing "Name That Tune."
Want to get Married: I am already. (Sorry, Mark.) If he ever leaves me, I will never do this to another man!
Do you want more kids: I love being pregnant, and would be a surrogate if I wasn't older than dirt.
Age you lost your Virginity: I was barely 14, and he was in his 20's. Not a great experience....
Hate anyone: Too much energy to hate. I do bloom out with it on rare occasions, but can't sustain the feeling. I usually feel hurt more than hate, and once I feel someone has hurt me, any feeling I had for that person turns to indifference. Once I feel indifferent, it has never turned back into love. That little switch goes, "flip." The End! Current Mood: chipper
|Sunday, August 3rd, 2008|
|I lOVE this song.
Ever since I heard this song on "So you think you can dance," I fell in love. :0)
Yes, I do watch SYTYCD. I have no life....
Read The Garden lyrics Current Mood: chipper
|Thursday, July 17th, 2008|
|July 2008 P90X ramble....
P90X Bring It! Thursday
Did you "bring it" today? Do you always? For the first few weeks, I wasn't even sure what the H was going on, no idea really what "it" was, much less how to bring it! I was too busy trying not to trip, fall, hit myself in the face while flailing around during kenpo....etc.
Then some days,I know I half-a$$ed brought it, just sort of showing up for the party but sitting alone in the corner.
Most days though, once I got more sure of myself, I just went for it,and ended up in a giant puddle of sweat by the end. I always feel SO GOOD when I give 100% to my workouts, so why don't I always do that?
That's another thing I'm gonna work on next round.
One thing about actually completing 13 weeks is I can see all the places I need to improve my performance in order to improve myself!
The good part is that now I'm more familiar with the workouts, that learning what they heck everybody is doing is over with, so next round I can just strive toward being able to actually do what they do!
Today was stretch for me, bleh. Sort of like gentle yoga in disguise. Another goal for next time, try my best to RELAX, breathe, try to become more bendy and stretchy and stuff.I need to be more patient with yoga and stretch days, I know, but I just want to jump and move and lift stuff!!
I have core again tomorrow, which is ok, then I finish with YOGA from hell on Saturday.
Have a good one, as always! -Tracy Current Mood: cheerful
|Wednesday, July 16th, 2008|
|cut and paste today
The bfl tracker site had one of those, "tell me about yourself" threads today, so figured I'd cut and paste my response from there over here. Why? Because I'm too lazy today to think of any more original words for my jounal! :0)
Hi,my name is Tracy ("Hi, Tracy!") I've been on tracker for about a year now, and I'm so glad I found you all! About me....I am old, which stinks, but I'm not dead, which is cool.
I always thought I'd live the life of a boho gypsy traveler, but that didn't happen. Instead I ended up married x2 with kids x3, but inside my head I'm still a wanderer.
Growing up, we moved about 27 different times, so think that is probably what lead to me feeling like an unmoored ship.
I LOVE to read, and also love to write, although I'm not a talented writer. The closest I get to world travel is my Netflix subscription. I like to watch foreign flix from all over the world....
I post random stuff to livejournal and a lot of photos to webshots. (sorry, no porno pix, like I said, I'm old)...http://www.livejournal.com/users/daisymae1/
My Webshots: http://community.webshots.com/user/daisymae_66
After my divorce, I went back to school, spent 3 years toward my Registered Nursing degree, but freaked out Senior year and changed my major to Sociology.Graduated from Tennessee Tech University in 2000. Now I work as a program specialist for TN State Government. What a strange fit that is, let me tell ya!
I spend 10 weeks training new employees in food stamp, medicaid and families first policy in a classroom setting, then send them out into the world. I cover 23 counties in the district. I still can't believe they trust me to mold the minds of these people.....
Well, that's more than enough about me! -Tracy Current Mood: amused
|Friday, July 11th, 2008|
|P90X week 12
July 11...can't believe I am almost finished with my first 13 weeks of this program. I love and hate it. It's the hardest workout I've ever tried, but it's working changes in me. I am feeling a lot stronger than when I started.
Here's a photo, but had to blur the skirt because it was a little TOO short and my bum was hanging out. :0D Current Mood: cheerful
|Friday, July 4th, 2008|
Independence Day & Fireworks Laws
Here in Tennessee, fireworks sales are permitted from June 20-July 5, and again December 10-January 2nd. We have new neighbors who just moved here from Ohio, and I think they moved here just so they can shoot fireworks, because every stinking night for the past week it's been, BOOM/BOOM/BOOM!!!!! It's like years of pent-up longing have finally been realized for these folks, LOL....
ANY sort of fireworks, as long as they pass inspection, are legal to sell.
Up until last year when they upped the age, the minimum age to purchase fireworks was age TEN! So it is always a scary time of year around here, a bunch of little bitty kids running amok with dangerous explosives.
This year, they upped the age to 16, a much more responsible and level-headed group of folks.... riiiight.
The funniest thing is that every time those guys fired off another bottle rocket, or roman candle or whatever, I hear the boom followed by, "Wheeee-Haw!" Or sometimes, "YEAH!!!!" or "Woooh, yeah!!!" "Didja see that one???"
It's all fun and games until someone loses a finger!
So if any of you are passing through our beautiful state this time of year, keep your windows rolled up and if you are out walking around after sunset, be prepared to duck and cover! -Tracy Current Mood: cheerful